A poem that inspired me....

"To Realize"

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

! Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.

You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend or family member:
LOSE ONE.


Author: anonymous

Well.....

I spoke to a young lady that is an author and she told me to write everyday for 15 minutes to open up the creativity doors. Thanks Junnita!!! I started with that exercise on Friday night and my brain is opening up more and more. I hope that you find my work interesting and influential. Please feel free to leave comments. I would like to feel the love and hear the critiques as well. Thanks for much for reading. 2010 is going to be a big year for me. Stay tuned there's more to come.......

DARKNESS, SILENCE, ALONE

Darkness
Silence
Alone

Thinking
Breathing
Writing

Darkness
Silence
Alone

Thinking
Breathing
Relaxing

Darkness
Silence
Alone

Was in desperate need of these things
to write
to function
to keep sanity

Darkness
Silence
Alone 

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TOLERANCE

At some point in time in everybody's life

They ignore whats wrong and whats right

Independent decisions are made or so you thought

But in the end it was all being selfish in thought

People who love u and their love is true

Become tolerant to the ignorant sh@! you do

You were a nice guy 'til that "special" girl ignored you

You become insecure wondering whats wrong with you, what did you do?

Feeling nobody's now worthy enough to know the "real" you

Getting caught up with your boys indulging in a threesome a time or two

Begins out spectacular something so fresh, so new

Until you feel that pain in your head the one down below

Going to the doctor to finding out that STD wasn't worth all of those blow

jobs that is

Now you're sitting around wondering why did this happen to you

Embarrassed, ashamed, disgusted, violated, now a lost boy are you

Realizing the game is more serious than you thought

Praying you get over this terrible clout

Now you know one of the things that brings boys to men

Be thankful it only takes one time to make everything end
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RIGHT THERE

I Love it when you slide your tongue between my legs
Licking and sucking slowly messing up my head
I Love it when you smack me on the ass
Oooooh boy please let my wetness feel your mass
My body aches for a dose of your d*ck
Don’t put it in yet, rub it up and down on my clit
Let my wetness soothe the head of your d*ck
Now slide your tongue down real slow ooooh I feel sick
Cause I can’t have the thing I’m addicted to
damn boy you’re freaky I Love the things that you do
Turn over on your back let me please you now
Oooh baby you got to hold on to that cum someway somehow
Just a few more minutes I know you’re about to bust
Hmmm yeah just give me one long deep thrust
Come here don’t be scared I just want to taste it once more
damn boy you’re trippin we’re about to be on the floor
Come here give me that d*ck so hard, so tall
Let me sit my wetness on that d*ck (ha) don’t worry it wont hurt at all
I’ll start out real slow riding on top of you
Ohhhh sh*t boy I’m about to cum all over you
You feel so good inside of my pouring waterfall
Yeah stay right there don’t move none at all
I’m climaxin in this satisfaction my brain is climaxin too
Humph that was so damn good I just want to say thank you!
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HOW LONG

Unconditional expressions of the word love
Help me to understand what has happened to us
We used to be happy, laugh, joke, and play
Now I pray for one peaceful day
Where we don't argue
End up not speaking
The beginning they say is always so good
Mesmerized and loving it
I guess that's that puppy love
I look back and laugh
Thinking those were the good old days
So help me to understand something
How long does love last?
How long can love last?
I guess as long as it can escape the past
The past of hurt, pain, and the bruises of a bad love
The past of giving so much and getting no love
In return for all of your emotional giving
And physical endurance
So tell me can you help me to understand something
How long does love last?
How long can love last?
I guess as long as it can escape the past 
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Food for my soul

I've been away whether I was blocked or not I was away from my passion too long. I've had thoughts that I can not explain but will be in the written form of a tale from me. Brooklyn is my choice of topic. Living in Brooklyn has made me see the other sides to everything that I thought was life, well it is for me, but it's not for most here. I am a active member at Talia's school and knowing what the children deal with and the problems that they face surpass the scale that I thought that they were weighed on. Family shelters, foster care, and abuse are just the beginning. I can not wait to post and publish my tales from the concrete jungle. The southern belle that resides inside of me is struggling to survive in the wild. Let me just start there......Stay tuned.

Growth

Well I've been gone for a while doing some self-reflecting and trying to get myself together on all aspects of my life. I always used to wonder how I can be a better person. What can I do to be the person that I want to be. Putting God first in my life is the first thing that I had to recognize that needed to change. Secondly self-reflecting when I get into situations that don't seem to be working towards a positive vibe to see what position I play in them. Taking a step back and looking at things from the outside gives me a greater perspective on what where stand not only in that situation, but as a person. Sometimes you have to let go. You have to grow up. You have to persevere to get to where you want to go and to be who you want to be. That is the road that I am on now. My road to success.

Taking a break....

It's been a while since I've been here to blog but I've had a lot going on. Life has thrown me so many curve balls that I didn't know which way that I was going. Getting to know myself has been a wonderful yet difficult process. I learn more and more everyday and it's amazing while draining. My writing is coming back to me slowly and I am definitely going to share. Until then I will continue to listen and learn more and more. Be back soon.

Different.....

For some strange reason today is a different day not a day of difference but a different day. Not the same shit, not the same day. Emotionally I feel different. Something has changed. Something evolved. Today. What you ask, what you wonder? I have no clue. Ever had a moment in the day, week, month, year even your life well you just felt different but couldn't explain and didn't even know why? Well today is that day for me. A day that's different. Being tired of being tired gets old too. I don't want to be tired. I'm tired of having the same repetitive conversations with myself about people that are in control of their lives and their stupidity. Doesn't simplicity get old? The simple never get tired of being simple? They don't want one challenge a year? I don't know what's happening. Am I evolving past and away from those that live a different life than myself? Am I growing up? Am I taking my life more seriously? I don't know what exactly is going on in my world that's going to change things from this day forward but I can feel it and whether or not I'm prepared now or ever will be will be determined later....... Stay tuned.

Obama & The Black Family

You know from the second paragraph of this article down to the end my mouth was hung open waiting for something to fly in it or some slob to drop out of it. The Cosby's do not count for anything because THEY'RE not real. There are plenty of powerful, successful, and rich black people that exist in today's society that have educated mothers AND fathers and well-mannered, educated, successful children. That's a crock of shit. Don't act like the Obama's are the first to do it in America. I love them don't ever get that twisted, but lets be honest with ourselves. Every black person is not uneducated, ill-mannered, or from the projects. Every black family in America does not consist of just a MOTHER. And if it does there are a lot of women raising their kids, while working very good jobs with their degrees and raising successful children who do the same. I am so bothered by the idea that people, black and white, feel so negatively about ALL BLACK people. Are there some project folk out there? Yes. Are there some Bebe's kids out there? Yes. Are there some white people that hail from the slums? Yes. Are there some white people that are considered "white trash"? Yes. Are there some ignorant ass mofos in the world black and white? YES! So lets look at it for what's it worth and not what you want it to be. Powerful black men have white women or women that's light, bright, and damn near white so Obama having a dark-skinned lets black people know that black is beautiful? Seriously? I needed to see Michelle Obama to feel being black is beautiful, that being black is okay? Really? Oh I'm sorry I didn't know that I had no self-esteem or self-worth without seeing a black educated woman. I must have missed that email. I was also left out of the loop that alerted black people that all couples argue in public and disrespect each other. Black people and manners or respect must never go in the same sentence with the word relationship huh? America needs to know and realize that ALL BLACK PEOPLE ARE NOT THE SAME. More of America needs to get out from behind their cubicles, under their rocks, out of their little world more and experience life. Its a whole nother world that exists out there and it can not be found on TV.

Read Below: http://www.cnn.com/2009/POLITICS/01/15/obama.family/index.html?iref=mpstoryview

Well, well, well......

I haven't been up here since November?!? That's crazy. Where does time go? I mean really 2008 is here and gone. For real. Well as I lay here in silence and darkness I am forced to think. Think of one thing. Me. What am I doing with myself? What would I like to do with myself? What am I going to do with myself? Emotionally I am working on getting myself together; for my children. They are looking at everything that I do. From the clothes I wear, to what type of shows I watch on television, to who I associate with. So ladies and gentleman it is not a game. I have to be as close to perfect for their good as I can be. What's good for me has to be better for them. Spiritually I am focusing on growing closer to God. That's too personal to share. Physically I'm working out and feeling great. Mentally I start class Feb 4 so I will be more stimulated than the worldly treasures and knowledge that I discover on my own all while moving closer to my goals. I must say God has truly blessed me and as I live life I realize everyday that I think of the past is nothing more than a day that I am wasting. Tomorrow is no more than a comfortable term for laziness as we put off what we don't want to do today. Tomorrow has never been and will never be guaranteed. Live your life and play the hands that your dealt. If you were dealing the cards you wouldn't be living. Take nothing or anyone for granted for the same one you dislike today may be the one you need later. Enough of my rambling. More thoughts to come and soon. Live your life. Goodnight.